growth

God provides time for us to grow, as much time as we need.  Lifetimes upon lifetimes; evolutionary science and grace.  Divine intervention, some of which not seemingly so.  Purity and pollution provides the stress and polarities needed to produce a spark which brings on enlightenment.  We are not at cross purposes here.  We are here to remind you to listen, to hear what is being said, to speak (you have a voice) you are an instrument; use it to manifest your power.  See what is before you.  See reality for what it really is.  Feel the beauty, and feel the pain.  Don’t run from it, walk through it, and come out the other side.  Leave it behind.  Nurture yourselves, water yourselves, eat living foods.  Dead foods =?  Live, love and learn to grow.

responsible

I do not have a responsibility to anyone other than to God, to myself and to everyone else.

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this day

I have opened my eyes to the possibility that now is the right time to be.  What I am experiencing this moment is the perfect event.  Sitting quietly on the floor, listening to the ocean waves crash, from a recording on the laptop, breathing in the fresh, clean smell of the moment.  Clear minded after yoga and a 31 minute meditation.  So cozy that I could curl up and go back to sleep, but that would not be enough for this day.  This day has a full sun, a wisp of clouds, and a gentle breeze.  This day brings with it smiles, certainty and surprise.  This day happens as I sit before the altar and pray.  This day is today.  From the depths of my soul I cry out to you, Wahe Guru.

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Selflove

When I am looking to fill the love hole in myself am I looking outside of myself? Where does love come from?  Does it come from sex, sugar or medication?  Do I need to be validated by someone?  The real question is, am I loving myself?  Am I validating myself?  I look at people that enjoy a loving partnership with their spouse and often really want what they have; and perhaps they are looking at me and really wanting what I have.  The magic partner is not going to fix me.  The girlfriend is just another teacher, the relationship another lesson.  If it is a lesson in love, then what a truly wonderful lesson it is, but it is still a lesson, hard fought, requiring patience, discipline and sacrifice.  It requires love, unconditional, not romantic; patient, not passionate. The passion ebbs, yet the love must grow.  It is the same in the love that I have for myself, a far more important love if any other love is to be genuine and true.

Sunrise

Whatever this day presents, I shall be present.

Celebration of Sacrifice

The story of Passover and Good Friday are stories of sacrifice.  Each of us sacrifice one way of living if we are to be reborn into another way of life, and often that includes some struggle, some time spent in the desert.  When I was a slave to my obsessions, my higher Power continually sent plagues upon me, wake up calls, that got louder, and more frightening, each time they came around; still I would not heed them.  Frogs, locusts and burning hail became sickness, loss and nights in jail.  Even at the frightening near loss of my children I could not stop this obstinate and baffling behavior.  It is because I had to die to who I was.  I spent the first year clean telling people that I did not know who I was, because I no longer was who I was; I had to be reborn.  I journeyed through the steps to learn who I was, who my Higher Power, that which I call God, was.  I tried my best to resolve and repair my wrongs, and to live in such a way that these wrongs would be amended.  I prayed and meditated.  I gave my life to others.   For me today is a special celebration of the loss of that life; that me that I thought was me, so that I could be reborn into the I am.

Love and Service

Do it, don’t go through it.  Be it, don’t just see it. Have it, don’t half it.  We come to a place today where recovery and service are one, for we cannot fully recover unless we can do for others.  We get down on our knees and we wash the feet of our family, friends and strangers so that we can come clean.  We wash the feet of others; strangers, sisters and brothers.  We give our lives to our work, which is the development of humanity, the construct of love in us, through us and around us.  Let us love other people.  Let us live for one another.  Let me be a better brother.

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